Life can be difficult at times. Since I found out I have a kidney disorder five, I’ve suffered terribly with my moods. Anxiety and depression is a reality for so many, but why do so many of us feel ashamed and hide it away? At the same time, why do so many people without anxiety and depression…
As you may have read in my anxiety post, I see my writing as a way of de-stressing and releasing my thoughts. It’s certainly a lot easier to write about nice things, but not so easy to share the more emotional things that happen in a week. This week was a little more than just anxiety for me. I have high standards for myself and although I know I should make them more realistic, I feel that I should always be functioning on a high level.
About three years ago now, I developed severe anxiety due to a traumatic experience in hospital. To this day, I still suffer with anxiety, but through retraining my thoughts, I don’t suffer anywhere near as badly as I did. My anxiety attacks these days are completely manageable and panic attacks are super rare as I am able to identify the symptoms and can quash them before they start to take hold. Here are my top tips on how I have dealt with my anxiety:
I’ve had enough now… I ignore you, but you keep coming back! You’re like a stalker, but I can’t get a restraining order for you. I can’t get you ‘put away’… you’re just there. I’m broken.
You don’t just give me pain, you’ve changed me as a person. I feel like a shell of my old self. Not only are you a stalker, you’re a thief! you’ve taken my confidence, my independence and most of my happiness. You make me feel worthless. The one thing you will never take is the love I have for my family. Whilst I have them, you will not stop me trying to get rid of you.